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Is marriage not the happily ever after you were promised your whole life? Is it, in actual fact, a disappointment? Do you feel ungrateful for all the struggles you have been blessed with? Does your husband emotionally neglect you? Does Biblical womanhood make you unhappy? What happened? How did you get here? Girl, welcome to The Wilderness™.
Let me tell you that the last five years of marriage raising four toddlers, including my husband, has been the ultimate blessing. It is literally what the Lord has designed me to do, while simultaneously blessing me with loneliness and misery. This is the true power of the Lord's love. He wants me to suffer this ordeal, which I have come to call The Wilderness™ or The Wild™ or whatever.
Okay, so what it The Wilderness™ exactly? Well the definition is flexible depending on what day you ask me. It usually meets the clinical criteria for depression, except is isn't- you're just disconnected. It's actually God refining you like the way he did with the Israelites' Exodus. How lucky are you to be so unhappy like this! And you have 40 years of it ahead! By walking through The Wilderness™ you are being spiritually beaten to hard into submission, that you will come out of the other end not only unbroken, but you will be hardened like a diamond! Spiritually impenetrable. Will it make you happier in the end? Good question, but it will certainly bless you with something even better than happiness- holiness!
Yes, I have built this entire world view on just the exodus of the Israelites. How do the two connect? Well because depression is too worldly and woke and so I opened my Bible at random and there was the answer! The Lord reminded me that the two are basically exactly the same. If you're feeling helpless and lost, remember the Israelites were lost for a bit. It reaffirms my bias that what I am experiencing is actually a test from the Lord that must be endured. Can I just say, I am pretty darn impressed with my own theological research and rigor. It only took five minutes to come up with, which means I'm really smart.
In this blog I want to encourage all mothers who all obviously experience the true suffering of traditional Christian marriage that you are not being emotionally destroyed, just refined- tweaked a little because the Lord sees room for improvement. I want to encourage you to not only accept The Wilderness™ or The Wild™, but embrace it and see the beauty of it. You too can absolute thrive in hopeless misery.
So strap in, ladies! It's gonna be a beautiful 40 years!
Source List: Exodus 16:35
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